I have similar situation with family. The way I look at it these days myself is I am not capable of having friends or girlfriends and so I don't know who I am except a family member who is really just no one. But the way it is with my family is they have one and i doht even know if i have permission to make a family lol so wont be doing that. I guess because im retarded or something. But hey you cant help that. So besides wanting to disappear im hoping to go off all my meds like a crazy person and see if anyone is there. So that's my plan to see if I exist. If not I will return to nothing and eat goji berrys