I don't feel it has ruined my life as to say. Yes, if I wasn't bi-polar things would have been probably very different. The thing is, I have a wonderful husband and 2 beautiful children and had I been different I might not have them. The thing is if you dwell on it, life has a lot of what if's. I try not to focus on it. I am who I am and I think I am stronger for it. Everything seems to eventually flow together or maybe it is just how I was raised and my outlook on life.

I hope you find some peace soon.