I feel the same way. I'm 24, by the way, in case it matters. I have kissed a guy though, back when I was 15. I know that I was very much attracted to him until we made out. Then I barely wanted to be around him. He was a fantastic person and we had fantastic emotional chemistry—but that's all. And that's pretty much all the ever happens. With girls or guys, it's only physical or emotional. So basically kissing doesn't necessarily tell you anything (unless you kiss a lot of people maybe).
There was a guy last year that I think I might have been attracted to him both physically and emotionally, but I scared him away.
I don't know what my sexuality is—I just say "bisexual" because I could go either way I guess.
I just hate having "crushes"...I think I like a guy now because we have emotional chemistry (go figure). I've been testing out the physical attraction in my imagination, but I don't think I could do it in real life. No matter how much I like them, there's always an "Ew...no" in the back of my head.
But I rarely like women, other than looking at a girl and thinking, "She's hot". There's been 2 or 3 that I guess I had a "crush" on, but still I don't know.
The older I get, the more confused I get.
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