Hello all. My name is Wendi.
My situation might be a bit unusual... it is not something I have heard about from anyone else. Because this could be a long post and I don't want to take up space, I will be very to the point. The purpose of my posting in this way to to see if anyone else can relate to what I am sharing.

1) I was diagnosed with Borderline Multiple Personality Disorder when I was in my 20's (in the early 90's)

2) I spent my 6 college years working with a professional counsellor on this and the rest of the "stuff" in my life.

3) My background is that I was sexually abused from age 2 1/2 through the age of 10 by "older children" in my neighborhood. No family sexual abuse.

4) At this point in my life, I am a productive citizen. I completed my BS in Interdisciplinary Studies. And I lead a mainly "normal" life.

Now, the situation is this. I was diagnosed with BMPD because for my entire life I have shared my body with a being that is not from Earth. I know, toss me in a padded room and throw away the key. No, I don't do drug, never have and don't want to. No, I don't even drink.

The thing is that I fully remember my past 5 lives. On my last life, I was a soldier and was killed in Vietnam. I was a tunneler. When I died, I was taken to a place where there was Star Beings who were very strange looking to me. They told me that they had beings called "Watchers" who watched our developement on Earth. They said the war I was in when I was killed was being fought by people who were trying to control others. They said my energy was marked and they wanted to know if I would let a Watcher join with me in my body and just observe what I went through in life. I said yes.

Now I will not go into all the details about things, but I have had one very interesting life. I actually was visited at night when I was a child by what I now think was a holographic military projection in combination with telepathic communication to me. I was "trained" by that "man in red" (that is what I called him because he looked like a red glowing person). The training was how to use energy to do "missions" or things they wanted me to do - like "dream walking" missions and such. When I tried to say no to them, I was tormented by them.

Anyway, the Watcher who was inside me was very loving to me and never told me how to think or feel. He would just observe and would talk with me when I had questions or needed to talk. He was my best friend and the only one I trusted.

Two years ago, the Watcher came forward and he did some work for his mission that he said he was here to do. This involved talking about all the things he observed that happened to me with a small group of people who believed that this was more than just stuff in my head.

Then after that event took place, the Watcher told me "goodbye" and left my body. Now he is not with me any more, but sometimes I will "feel" him come to me and check on me or talk to people who believed what we had to share.

Now here is the thing. I knew this Watcher while I was still in the womb. I have memory of the womb experience and memory of him talking with me and sharing in that environment. When I was young and the sexual abuse started, I would actually go to the pool at night and go in the deep end and curl in a fetal position and stay in the water for a very long time like that. I can't explain it now or do it now, but there was a way I was able to breath underwater like in the womb but without breathing. I would freak out my parents in the pool when they would do contests with having us kids hold our breathe and they would think I was going to drown. So I stopped doing that infront of people. Then I forgot how to do it.

Anyway, I honestly believe that somehow I did share my body with a Star Being. The one who said I was BMPD said he was amazed that I had survived the situations I went through in my life and came out at all. He said that this other personality was formed as a way for me to make it.

If that is the case, how did I know that other person before I was even born? Also, his personality was so different from mine and he knew things I did not know. He could see things into the future and be right about it. He predicted an Earthquake once and we make that prediction on a public BB and one lady believed us and it saved her life because she asked for a date (I was 2 days off ) and she was not in bed when a 300 lb mirror fell that would have crushed her.

Also, now I really want to believe that it was just another part of myself because when I went "public" with the Star Being and he was doing what he needed to do, well people really love him and his energy and the way he is with others. There is so much love and wisdom from him. And I really want to say now that it is just another part of me.

And also, I miss him. He called me his little sister.

Ok. I am going out on a limb to toss this one out there... but lets see :-)