To me? It feels as if you are bone weary of 'feeling '...'pretending to care '....and 'following their road.'
I am that way too.
I wish to care about what I care about. Not be told what should matter.
I wish to feel what I feel when I feel it and not have to hide.
I wish to walk my own road after walking someone else's road for over 45 years.
I wish to live my life.
I am over saturated with being the football.....kicked around and then left in the ball bag.
This is MY take on this.....and this is MY life.....live your life according to your own wishes.
Be content within yourself.
How old are you? May I ask? Have you ever asked them to "stop "?
It 's not your fault. Remember that.
Mama