i know i am a better stronger person now.. the other thing that bothered me is that my mom knows about the abuse.. but being that she was abused herself by her own mother. she blocks it out. so she asked me to drive her and the man who abused me the most to the funeral not wanting to be alone i agreed, but being in that town with him in my car....made me very scared. i am grown and he will never hurt me again.. i know that i can fight back. i know that it would be ok to fight back. it was just extremely emotional for me....very draining for me!!!!!!

thanks for listening.....