This might sounds extreme but...have you ever watch video about giving birth?or if its possible watch the real one ..when i was on you age all i wanted is to be a mother , have kids so when i am old my kids and i wont have much age difference, but somewhere along my 21th it stopped and now iam 28 yo and i dont think iam ready to have baby
or is there any orphanage for a baby near to your place ? can you volunteer yourself there?