I have read your words for a while now. and I think you will do great. Yes things might get triggered. But I have full confidnce that the part of you that wants to get better ( and I do believe we all, as humans, have parts of us in resistance aka fear) is strong enough to carry you through. I sincerely do. I think you are one dedicated woman. The road to recovery is not a straight line. And it is littered. So please know that often what feels like being stuck or regressing is simply another stop along the way. I hope my words help. And I do wish you the very best of luck.