No, it hasn't. Sure its not without its challenges and "interesting" moments, but every "stupid", thing I did that was bipolar related has been a character building learning curve. I've learned more about myself, more about my behaviour, and ways to prevent or tone down certain behaviours than ever would have been possible had I been "normal".

I'm very careful to not repeat negative experiences on purpose, I'm really not the flog a dead horse type a gal So its safe to say I will not allow bp to ruin my damn life. But that's the control freak me speaking, she's such a beyotch, dontcha just lurv herrr

On the other hand, this borderline bullshyt is doing a pretty good job of ruining my present life... I'd choose bp destruction over borderline anyday, atleast learning is good for something where bp is concerned, plus I have a better defense than "I can't control my emotions"... meh.

Excuse me while I go clean up the emotional mess I made for myself