I don't want to take my meds either. My moods aren't wrong. I'm not a danger to anyone. There's nothing wrong with the way I think. Yes, it's not a very productive way of thinking, but at least it's my way of thinking. When I'm depressed I usually see things clearly, often even more clearly than when I'm not depressed. I think clearly when I'm hypo too, I just see the world in a different light. In fact, I understand most things better than any "normal" person I know, and that is not unrelated to the fact that I am bipolar.