UPDATE:
I CAN feel! Now that my H has moved out of the house and I'm not scared all the time, I can feel things. I have actually cried a few times!! I know it sounds weird to be happy about that, but I thought I was permanently broken or defective. Now I know I'm normal, but was just in a bad situation.

I feel sad about what has happened, even though I am the one that initiated the split. He kept me isolated from his family and any friends, so I won't miss any of those people, and now I'm working on developing new friendships.

Bub