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Originally Posted by Hellion
I guess to me fleeting ideas of a potential potential, aren't enough to overcome the pain and frusteration causing the suicidal feelings I might have when its all too overwhelming. Hence 'but someday you could - - - - or - - - -.' is more depressing than anything because no one can acknowledge you're suffering in the here and now and that maybe someday you wont and you can't and it might not get better.
But that's just me, I realize it can brighten some peoples days guess I am just not one of them. I used to tell myself it would get better and that someday I would reach some potential to really maybe make some kind of positive difference, and its only gotten worse and more and more clear there really isn't much I can do about the messed up way things are. So I've had to find other ways to make it through besides hope since with hope always comes crushing disappointment and hopelessness or so it seems.
So perhaps my personal experiance has skewed my view but it is what it is I suppose.
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The point is that you may not know what gift you have for the world, and you very well could have one!
But yes, trust me when I say I feel so much like you, and it was really what was actually going through my mind when I posted it. However, just because I feel hopeless doesn't mean that I can't at least help over people alleviate their hopelessness. Even if it's silly and unlikely, we at least need to find something. Even if I begin to believe that the suffering will be endless ... I still try to convince people what I am not convinced of -- that there is hope somewhere.