Last time I had to get up in the morning on a day to day basis, I got up at 7 or 8 depending and I fell asleep at 5 am. That is how it works. I did that for 10 months straight. My body just wouldn't accept sleep before 5 am, no matter how tired I was in the day. When night came, I was wide awake. I did my physical health a lot of harm that way, because I need 9-10 hours of sleep and I got 2-3, because then I had to get up. i didn't take any naps because that ruins it even more. If I could fall asleep at say 10 pm I would wake up at 1 am (often with night terrors because I went into deep sleep too fast) and then I was up for the night and the next day.

People kept cheering me on not to sleep at weekends, so at the start I tried to keep the same "pattern". I ended up so sleep deprived I got suicidal. It wasn't worth it. So I let myself sleep in on Saturdays mostly. Then I felt better and tried to put myself on the "right" pattern again with getting up at 8 am in the weekends too, lasted maybe 3 weeks, then I crashed again. After a few rounds of that I decided it wasn't worth risking my life over something I obviously couldn't change with sheer discipline.

When I say discipline I mean it. It doesn't mean cheating and messing things up. I really gave it some really hard tries.

When I talk to my parents they told me I had this pattern from I was 1 year old. So I guess I actually should accept it and not try to be what society finds acceptable. Because it's not like they accept me in any other way either.