Rhapsody - I know it cognitively isn't correct of me to think those things but sometimes it really does seem that nobody else is ever responsible for the bad stuff that happens. Only me.

Fuzzy - thanks as always! edit: Ps. Fuzzy ... who says you're "common"? You're extraordinary and special you!!

Constant - thanks for the neat advice. I really should learn to take a "time out" to just breathe. I just don't. It builds up and piles up and then it explodes and I feel worse.

Thanks all of you