Sometimes we have to be brave & tell others what you need--advice, affirmation, someone to listen to you, sympathy, empathy...I think if the poster doesn't spell it out, I can't figure out what is desired & I then don't post anything for fear I will give the "wrong" thing--something that will not help & maybe even harm. I'm not very socially adept to "read the clues." I kinda need it spelled out for me. Perhaps others are like that & would love to respond if we can figure out what is needed. Anyway, don't feel so alone. As you can see, you are wanted & much appreciated here.--Suzy