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Apr 02, 2013, 09:52 PM
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Member Since: Apr 2013
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Hey there,
I was reading through the threads. What resonates is that part of feeling guilty comes from childhood. Its so long ago. It never affected me till now. I sued to be bubbly and confident. Then I inherited the same mental illness as mum, my dad passed away when I was young. I hate having the illness, negative thinking and hating myself. I don't want to blame my mum but I feel its unfair I was ok for most of my life trying to be there for her. Now I am have the same illness. How long will it take,its been three years and I am over it. The thing about not feeling good about yourself is that is not tangible. Its something in our thinking that we must try remap. I just want to be happy and stop reliving the past. More fun and happy times being random without worrying.I feel stupid unattractive and not loved. I made some mistakes which I am taking some responsibility for but carrying a burden with me everyday is too much. I don't want to be a victim anymore I want to live in the present. Because I was unwell I feel that I will be defined this way forever. Even though mentally I am quite stable I'm just unhappy.  Any advice?
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