To be fair, people tell me I'm attractive, but I must not be.

I don't connect to other people either. Where I live now people seem to like me, but who really knows.

When I see a couple in public, I'm filled with homicidal rage. It takes all my self control not to run them over with my car etc. It used to just be depressing, but it's way beyond that now.

At least you have a therapist to talk to. I really don't have anyone. Therapists make me feel worse and even more stupid and inept than I was before talking to them.