I quit my job yesterday. I hated it - it was a 1.5-hour commute each way, the training did nothing to prepare us for the real-life scenario, the management lied to all of us about our pay and our benefits, and the customers were horrible (I don't mean that they were merely crabby or difficult - I mean that they were abusive and cruel!). So, I am without a job again. I don't feel as horribly about it as I might have in the past, if only because I honestly think there is something better out there - because, in all fairness, nothing could be any worse than that job. I'm also feeling sad about the romance I am having, because, at this point, it's very clear to me that it's the guy I am seeing who is having the romance. I know this sounds terrible, but I simply don't feel anything for him. I don't know why - he is sweet, intelligent and amazing in so many ways, but I am not attracted to him the way he would like me to be. I want to tell him this, because I don't think it would be fair to either of us if I held out for any longer, but I don't know how to say this to him. The last thing I want to do is hurt him, but at the same time, if I feel nothing, then that's just how I feel.

So, basically, right now I am feeling very disappointed - disappointed in the outcome of my employment, disappointed in myself for not feeling anything for this guy... I feel incredibly guilty. I just want to get my life started out here in Colorado, while making as few mistakes as possible. I've been out here less than three months, and I've already made two...