Ive been having a bit of a rough time since I moved to a college town. I'm a lot happier than I was in my home town, but I've been struggling with finding balance in every thing I do. As a perfectionist, I tend to work too hard, which leads me to miss out on my writing and my experiences.

I've had trouble building an ideal social life. I have a hard time finding people that I like to be around. When I force myself to try and make more friends, things go wrong. I've lost so many friends this year for nothing that I have done.

I've been excited to be spending time with a guy a like, but I don't think it's going anywhere. I find myself nervous and impulsive around him and he hasn't made a move in a while. Im not used to rejection, and it's causing me unneeded stress. No one gets it because they find connections with people more easily.

I'm stressed and exhausted all the time. I'm often lonely and unsure hw hat to do to find friends here. I'm just so confused because I'm attractive, smart, kind, and into fun stuff. Im having issues with self esteem.

I'm sick of being alone most of the time and only being able to connect with most of my peers if I'm drunk. Does this feeling get better with age?

I feel like I ostracized myself more by bugging my crush to return a sign we stole this weekend. I can't help that I'm not as "chill" as my peers. I don't want to do things that make me feel uncomfortable to reduce this outcast feeling, but I don't get why nobody likes me