I dont believe you are as bad a person as you think you are Alastria. Depression tells us many lies about many things and the hard thing is how it seems so true to us. We seem to be predisposed to feeling rotten about ourselves, pick up on silent messages from others and turn and attack ourselves because of our perceptions about those messages.

It takes a lot of time to unravel what our twisted thinking has done to us and we need a lot of help with that. Someone loving, caring, patient and smart. A good therapist can help you and you're young so its good you're looking into this now.

Have you read any of the articles on depression here at PC?