I feel bad for you because you feel so bad. I hope and pray today that you will have courage to get through this day. One thing I think although, is, that I don't think your friend is cutting herself because of you, she has her own problems herself and maybe you can help her but if you feel you cant I suggest you stay away from her until she can get her head together.If not, she will still be cutting and you'll still be feeling guilty and bad. I can believe your level of stess as I've had a period of time in my life where I was like that too. My meds helped me it took years to feel as good as I do now, and I still have days when I feel pretty messed up, but not nearly as much anymore. I see a doctor and a T, and that helps too.