Right now I am so lonely because I can't connect with other people that I don't know how much more of it I can take. I don't like being at work, but I have to work. There is no social service that will help me. Society will force me to be around people and that means I will have to be uncomfortable. Therapy doesn't fix it, but tells me to use techniques to tolerate the pain. I don't know if there's a job out there I could do that would pay enough for my family. I want to tell my family to leave me so I can just fall apart, but I don't want to lose them either.

I'm in a horrible space right now and really have lost hope.