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Nessa213 · Apr 03, 2013, 10:15 AM

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Originally Posted by thebelljar12

Do you find a trend of the kinds of people you make friends with? Are you meeting them in the same way?

Do you ever feel like once you start to get close to someone you feel like ditching them and just being alone?

I feel like a lot of this has to do with depression. Depression can give you those blinders/filter you were talking about. It can blur and hinder your ability to make decisions, it can really impair how you feel about yourself, your self esteem, and how you think about your relationships. Have you ever given this any thought?

I hope this helps, if even just a bit.

I've actually gotten better at picking friends, but for the LONGEST time it felt like I was picking very destructive people. They'd all have their own mess of problems (not saying that it's their fault) but I'd always get dragged into it making MY situation that much worse. Right now, the few friends I have seem to be relatively supportive but I'm having a really hard time opening up to them fully.

I try not to be greedy or needy. I know everyone has their issues and demons. Maybe my main issue is that I don't want to feel like a bother to anyone.

And this part: "Do you ever feel like once you start to get close to someone you feel like ditching them and just being alone?" is SO right on you don't even know. I get too close to someone and I can literally feel myself start to panic. So maybe I push people away on purpose? For some sick and twisted reason...