I think I just came out of one a few weeks ago.

It was a bizarre feeling for me. And I'm not sure if it was actually a mixed episode or what. Almost like I was drunk for days on end. My head was quite literally spinning. It was almost as if there were so many voices and thoughts in my head that I was literally blinded.

I knew it was more towards mania becuase everything around me seemed to move so freakishly, ungodly slow. My road rage (and rage in general really) was seriously OUT of control.

But at the exact same time it was such a hopeless feeling. Like I was being SUCH a burden on everyone around me and no one would EVER understand me. I thought that the only way to stop everything was to run my car off the road. Or OD on something. Anything. Just to get it to stop.