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Originally Posted by Nessa213
I think I just came out of one a few weeks ago.
It was a bizarre feeling for me. And I'm not sure if it was actually a mixed episode or what. Almost like I was drunk for days on end. My head was quite literally spinning. It was almost as if there were so many voices and thoughts in my head that I was literally blinded.
I knew it was more towards mania becuase everything around me seemed to move so freakishly, ungodly slow. My road rage (and rage in general really) was seriously OUT of control.
But at the exact same time it was such a hopeless feeling. Like I was being SUCH a burden on everyone around me and no one would EVER understand me. I thought that the only way to stop everything was to run my car off the road. Or OD on something. Anything. Just to get it to stop.
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How were you with sleeping during this time? It sounds like what you went through is similar to what's going on with me. I have a really short fuse with people right now, most of what people do just annoys me, especially my elderly mother in law.
She is senile and lives downstairs, and I feel like I have to avoid her or i'll flip my lid. She is so rude and expects my husband to do everything for her. Once something is done, she comes up with more things for him to do.
I was grocery shopping yesterday and this woman who didn't speak english was blatantly asking for where the welfare bread was, she was dressed well and her litte pig of a child was eating various sweets throughout the supermarket. It ENRAGED me and I kept giving her dirty looks and I wanted to punch her in the face. Afterwards I saw her leaving the store and I watched her to see what kind of a car she drives. It was a brand new (maybe 1 yr old) honda CRV. Clearly more expensive than the 2004 pickup truck my husband and I own. It really pisses me off that these freeloading foreigners come here with open hands saying "gimme gimme"... ok im sorry that was a rant.