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Originally Posted by Harley47
Hi there. 
It sounds to me this is based off of what you went through in the past (which do allow me to say, I am sorry this ever happened to you  ). The responses people have to trauma are as varied as the people themselves, but sometimes, in my own casual observations here, sometimes people try to "normalize" what they went through by recreating it later on in life, to varying degrees. Unfortunately, your abuse was how you were introduced to sexuality. This can cause unusual sexual behavior later in life. I'd wager this is what you're experiencing.
Have you ever sought a therapist? They can help you work through what you went through, and help reduce the urge to continue doing this. It can only help.
I hope I was of some help. Know you're in my prayers, and I wish you all of the best.
Hugs,
Harley
PS: Did not know that about Australian wool...lol I'll need to keep that in mind if I ever upgrade my pea coat.  |
that explains it, i see now! i was taught how to touch my mums bf and then to make it ok i kept doing it with others! thank you for explaining
and also i thought it was really amazing to see how my mums bf's changed size and the erupting which i think everyone can admit is amazing.
yes i see a therapist about my wrong feelings about men cos my mum notice it but i never told my therapist about my mums bf. i never told anyone but now that i said it online i think i can say it out loud hopefully soon. at first i just thought it was a biiology problem because being around nice men made my clothes wet and breath deeply. but its my mind i think. unless its like a combination of my body being too sensitive and my past. not sure if my body reactions are connected to me liking making men erupt or if they are separate things.
my mums bf let me in the bed when mum was out and now when i'm babysitting at my bosses house i get in his bed when he is out.
thank you
Harley that is nice!