Our marriage has never been about each other. It has always lacked doing things for the good of the other. I do things for my H far more then he does for me. I don;t know if it is bacause I am female or what the reason. He is quite self centered. Him being nice to me and me opening up to him always comes with a price. I think since T this week he may be changing his tune a little.

It appears that he is very sorry for treating me like he has for 18 years.I think he is starting to realize he has screwed up badly. It will be a learning process to let him back in. I have kept him out of my heart for a long time. I had to protect me.

Who know hwat is going to happen. I feel more hopeful w/ the T to help me threw my trauma and help my H and I both where we fall short.