Granite, can you try to look at it like, "Monday appointments FOR NOW" ? After all there are 4 other day s in the week; something can open up any time. And we don't have another Monday holiday coming until... lessee... end of May.

I know you say you're hurting (and I don't doubt it!) but I also see a lot of serious thought, and good articulation in yr post, about what you think about all this, and there is a lot of courage & determination showing there.

I think yr T might have said all this earlier; I am rejoicing that you will be able to write, draw, communicate however you want. You have been trying; but she tied your hands in the ways you could communicate and now she's opening that up. That's a LOT, Granite...

I think you have a victory here, dear, not a failure.