Granite
Well done for reaching out and asking for help, that must have been hard, especially asking for a different day. Do you think you will be able to communicate with your t this time? How about writing, you write so well and so articulately and by writing what you feel seems to be therapeutic for you as you cried and got your pain out writing this! I hope you can find a way to communicate because your t sounds awesome and she is really trying to help you.