Ive been having some mental health issues lately with anxiety, depression, loneliness, fear of abandonment, and feelings of inadequacy. I'm trying really hard to finish my crazy semester strong and try to focus on myself this summer, but everything is going wrong.

I made a goof the other day that may have gotten me into legal trouble, but I won't know for a while. I want to tell my dad but other stuff keeps popping up. He has a horrible temper some times. Today, I got into a fender bender and a piece of my dad's car fell off. To make matters worse, I'm pretty sure that my hard drive just crashed. I have little backed up, it kills me to think that I just lost 3 years worth of memories and writing. I can't afford a new one.

Now, I feel alone and hopeless. My laptop is my world. I can't do homework without it. Plus, I don't have a lot of friends here. I keep myself happy with my solitude by doing things on my laptop all of the time. If I don't have it, I will. Have nothing to do.

Now, I'm texting a good friend, but I feel awful because I'm reminded that I have no one to hold me and offer advice. I never have anyone helping me do anything and so I learn everything the hard way. When I had a bf, they always helped me with school, my car, and my laptop.

I'm so alone with no means to distract myself. My mom is too mentally I'll to help me, my sister is dead, and I'm afraid that if I do anything wrong, my dad will leave me again.

And how am I supposed to make friends if I'm sad and scared? I feel that bad luck follows me everywhere and that I should give up on pursuing happiness. I need to see my therapist, but she can't fit me in.

Advice?!?! I'm so scared and alone.