I had interviews at all the jobs I applied to. They all seemed to go well, but apparently they didn't go as well as I thought, because this last one only took one day for the email to come back telling me I didn't get the job. I had to take gas money to get to the damn interview out of my rent, now I don't have my rent money. I just got a new landlord, so I'm not too sure how understanding he will be. If I was still dealing with his Mom, it wouldn't be that huge a problem, but now, I don't know. I got help with the water bill and some food yesterday, even though continuously living off these charities is killing me. I wasn't brought up that way. I want to work, even tho I'm on disability.My power bill is due next Friday, with a cutoff on it, and if I don't make a car payment this month they're probably going to come get the car, and I won't have to worry about paying my insurance that's due this month too. All this and we have NO money left at all. I've applied for everything around that I can find. After I got the email yesterday, I finally just sat here and cried, something I very seldom do. I was not brought up to cry, either. But I just feel totally hopeless at this point, and my son is counting on me. I'm a survivor, always have been, but at this point, I just don't see any more options. My boyfriend thinks I should move in with him, I would rather just hang myself. Does anybody have any ideas I haven't thought of yet? Because I'm at the end of my rope and I see that darkness heading at me like a speeding train, and if I get stuck in one of those depressions, it's pretty much over. I just feel so hopeless.