I'm really happy you were able to make your decision :-) I know its been a long hard process. I know you want to rebuild a connection with your daughters. Can you keep a journal for each of them and answer all the questions you think they'll have, share past and future good memories about them and other things like that? Then come there 18 th or 21st birthday send it to them. This way they can see things through you eyes but process it in their own time.