Hey,
Everyday I'm depressed. I've tried looking online on how to be happy but the tips don't really help or may just help for a limited amount of time. I tried visiting my psychologist at school but she was required to ask my parents if I could see her and my parents said no. My parents never let me out of the house and have zero trust in me, so its kinda hard to make friends. The friends that I do have would never believe me if I said I had depression because I'm always happy at school. I probably wouldn't be able to trust them to keep it to themselves anyway. I've cut myself once (more like scractched) but it didn't help. My sister is 11 months younger than me but she's allowed to have friends even though she's more untrustworthy then me. I feel like my parents don't really like me. I always have suicidal thoughts but all I want to be is happy. I'm in highschool now, but my parents said they won't let me stay in a dorm or an apartment when I go to college. Basically I'll have to live with them for the rest of my life because they have zero trust in me. I've stopped texting my friends because my parents always find a reason to make my texts sound bad. I feel so trapped and alone and I just want someone to talk to. In fact, if my parents found out they I'm using this website they would be extremely mad. Please help I don't know what to do.