I'm sorry, too, Beckieislonely. Life sometimes doesn't seem fair, but when we're given a lemon, the best thing to do is to try to make lemonade.

People here are mostly friendly and want to help. Please keep in touch for support and kindness.

I would think that meditation might be helpful, and I would make an effort to read
some material that is uplifiting spiritually.

I agree that the computer is a crutch of sorts, but there are some genuinely real
people who want to listen and to try to help. You'll recognize them when you see
them in your various efforts to reach good people who are naturally friendly.

Take care of yourself, and I hope your situation improves for you.