I was talking to him last night and I had to fight the urge to cry. I would be sitting there talking, and this deep, agonizing sadness would well up inside of my and threaten to burst forth, and it was all I could do to keep it contained. I sat there and we talked, and in my mind I was screaming that I love him, and it was so hard not to just throw myself at him and wrap my arms around his neck and tell him how much I love him. I wanted to bury my face in his shoulder and just start sobbing. I already was on the inside.