Thank you, for your reply, I have just been so angry at the person who did this, and myself for letting it happen..
I know that the phrase "if I would have" is nothing but a phrase, and I have been such an idiot latley.
I had to put my best friend (well second) down and the agony of watching both of them has made me I guess lash out her for not trying. I never look at it the way you explained it. She spends most of her time w/a friend now and avoids me, at first I thought she was giving me a break. I know I have been over protected and anxious for her to come back, but your right, and I don't know what to do. I fell as if I lost my whole family in the last month.
You wont believe this but I go in for a total knee replacement in two weeks. ha-ha
tahnks again