Hey guys.
I just want to keep it short.

i've been in a major depressive episode for 7-8 months now, and the key to start getting better, is a GOOD PSYCHOTHERAPIST.

(i just changed my old therapist to a new one, and the signs of improvement are fast!!! really fast!)

so if you attend therapy, and you feel like, you're not moving on, you're stuck, you should perhaps think about switching to another person.

The major sign that a therapy is working - and this is really important - that it HURTS F____ IN BAD!!!!!



so if you feel like you're calm, and alright and perhaps "happy", or in an unusually lifted mood - those are, or were for me - signs, that I could hide my feelings even more, and confuse myself with a false well-being.

Everybody has to understand that the purpose of the therapy is not to chit-chat, or to laugh, or whatever, or just to have a good time, and leave relieved, the purpose of the therapy is to be "CRUELLY" honest with yourself. and if you're dealing with depression, i can assure you, there really are deep stuff goin on in you. And if you're going in the right direction, and digging in the right place, you will know, it HURTS SO BAD. but it hurts the most only at the first time. and you will know. you will just know, you're getting out of this.

This is how I feel, and I admit this might not apply to everyone, but if you guys feel like you're stuck, you might want to think about this, what happened to me.

And i'm on SSRI too, 10mg paroxetine, i started 3 and a half weeks ago.
You can't, and must not rely completely only on the meds. The meds itself might help a bit, but without exploring the depth of the mental problem you will never fully recover.

We all know there are no "snap outs", and sudden changes, instant cures, "sudden and fast reliefs" in depression, but if you're going in the right direction, there are definitely turning points. And for me, this new therapist, and the intense session (2 times per week), helped me realize the real depth of my problem, and I can say, know I'm coming out of depression. And it's harder than everything. And it hurts more than the depression itself. But at least I know I'm going somewhere.