No reply needed - just documenting the weirdness of my life

So there was a rabbi and a pastor...sounds like the beginning of a joke, right? Actually, it's my life.

I'm a Messianic Jew who believes in Jesus. I live 70 miles from the nearest Messianic synagogue, which is run by a rabbi. I live 5 miles from a church, which is led by a pastor.

I filed for divorce last week and my H has contacted both of them. The rabbi called today to tell me that marriages are covenantal agreements that should not be broken. He wanted me to go for yet more marital counseling and couldn't understand why I would leave. I finally told him, "Rabbi, I've intentionally kept all the sordid details of our life quiet, but if you need to know them to understand my decision, then I'll be happy to share with you."

I honestly thought he'd say no thanks. But he didn't. So I shared a 6 page letter that details some of the horrors I've endured with this man. The last paragraph reads "I can forgive because I am forgiven, but I’m having a hard time forgetting. Because there is little trust between us – he doesn’t trust me because of the Meadows [treatment center] and the ultimatum - there is little intimacy or even communication. Most nights I was in one room and he was in another. I was worried enough about his homecoming last Thursday that I asked a mutual friend to come and retrieve all the firearms (both legal and illegal) from the house so there was less likelihood of a violent encounter. Now tell me Rabbi, if this were your wife I was writing about, would you want her to stay married to this person? Would you be telling her that a covenant is binding and non-breakable, or would you be saying, dear – I know you want the best for him, but he is not willing to help himself. He is a mentally ill, alcohol abuser or alcoholic, drug using, violent man and I think you should do what you need to do to be safe?

Think I'll get a response?

The pastor, on the other hand, was completely different. He asked me what percentage chance my husband had of staying my husband. Since I hadn't filed at the time, I said 5%. He said, OK - a chance! Then talked to me for an hour asking questions of what was going on in our marriate (something the Rabbi has never done). After the talk was done he said, "I empathize with you. I will support you in your decision to leave H and will work with you both to make it as amiable as possible"

Guess where I'll be going for services from now on?
Bub