Hello TroubledPast. I noticed this was your first post here at PC.



I assume you received counselling when you were younger. It might be a good idea if you did get a therapist so that you would have a goal focused treatment plan as a supplement to posting here at PC.

I see that you have posted in the correct forum. So I assume you are able to navigate about this web site and find information resources that will help you work through this process.

There are opinions that guilt is part of the reason that perpetuates in obsessive compulsive disorders. This is not to suggest this is involved with what you described. But it involves the topic of anxiety and defence mechanisms that needs a therapist involvement. That is the reason I suggest the possibility of a therapist.

If support and feedback from PC members are adequate for your needs, then it is good that you have become a member.