Dear T

I am lost. I'm afraid to talk to anyone. I want to call you, but I don't. I really need to see you. Monday is too far away and I don't think just talking on the phone would be enough. I'm having some bad urges. I hate life right now. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I wish you could make me feel better. Having strong urges to stop my meds again, and we both know what will happen if I do. I wish I could have that feeling of safety now like I feel while I'm sitting in your office with you.