Hi, yes i totally get your situation. My response to depression was always substance abuse and not eating. Even when i went through phases of not abusing substances it was always obvious when my MH wasn't right because i would stop eating.
Now i really don't think i have any sort of eating disorder, when i don't eat it's not because i want to inentionally starve myself, it's as straightforward as just not being hungry so i don't eat. The problem with that is the less you eat the more your stomach shrinks and so the less you feel inclined to eat. Often i'd go three days between meals, and even after three days i would only eat because i knew i needed to and not because i was hungry. So after three days i'd have something to eat and then think OK that's that sorted for another three days or there abouts. I continued doing this till i collapsed in the street, my legs simply wouldn't carry me anymore. So now i try and make sure i eat something everyday. I like fruit a lot so i tend to buy a lot of fruit, which is also good because you don't have to do anything with it and it's good for you. Also i find if i'm struggling to eat then getting something that is easy to eat is a good idea, for example, like a steak is pretty hard work, if you're not feeling like eating then a steak is going to be hard work. Often i'll buy soup because it's easy, just sort of slides down with minimal effort.
Your symptoms sound a lot like mine, if i don't have anything to do i just want to sleep for as long as possible. I don't care how long i sleep for, the longer the better. Sometimes just the thought of sleep makes me want to lie down and try and sleep again, i might have only been up for an hour but sleep seems like a far more favourable otion sometimes, total bliss, nothing to worry about, no-one to deal with, no-one to please, just total unconciousness.
Hope you feel better soon. Wish i could offer better advice.
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