((((Lilithlee)))), I understamd this is a really rough time in your life. I know its hard to feel worthwhile in that situation. I used to live with my sister and take care of her kids. You do the best you can. You are my friend. Things will get easier for you. I'm sorry I javent seen you around the forums. Be proud of yourself for seeking help! I didn't look for the right kind of help at that age. You are on your way.. you will get there. Find something you like to do for yourself today. Live in that moment. If its a cup of tea or drawing a picture, anything to release some anxiety..then take some big breaths and stay in that moment. Keep posting