Feel anxiety building. What's wrong? Yesterday was a good day. Not nauseated. By evening I was having that choking feeling and it was with me as soon as I woke up. I just feel like crying, but no tears come. The anguish and despair is all building up inside. I want help, relieve, but I don't know exactly what it is that I need because I don't know exactly what is wrong. What a demon this mental illness is. Just when things seem to be okay another problem comes up. I just hate it. Why won't it leave me alone? If there was a Smilie for Despair I would put it here.