blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah my feet hurt so bad.

my tattoo hurts. i wasn't able to keep it moisturized last night while at work and also had to keep it covered so when i got home and later when i woke up it was all dried out and painful...but trying to keep it extra moisturized today since i'm not working...

feeling okay today. planning to go to hobby lobby this afternoon and try to start on a nice jacket for myself...since husband gave me a $100 gift card...

feeling kind of bad about that, but oh well...not like we can take it back now...

oh well...




scratch that, i feel like ****. and not anything anyone did or said, i just want to curl up under a rock and die. i feel so guilty and stupid and i hate myself. i sucked at my job last night and even though i know it's not my fault we were there so late (i wasn't the first department to finish for the night but i wasn't the last either) i feel like it's all my fault. i feel like i'm such a failure because i didn't do it all on my own or faster or perfectly. i feel like such a fat slob because my stupid ankle started hurting and i had to slow down for it, and maybe it wouldn't hurt if i'd never gained so much weight..........


GOD i was doing so good.......