Thanks everyone. I just feel like... it's so hard to explain.

I have one novel that's done, as in the writing is complete. It just needs a lot of editing. It is 150,000 words. I don't think you understand what I mean when I say that everything is there, but I can't get the words out any more. It's like a wall in my head. 150,000 words writen in 20 days. That's not perfectionism. That's getting the idea out. I know how to do that.... it's not the issue.

I am frustrated. Because I've lost something extremely precious to me. If you look at the story I was working on on my blog, you'll see I'm not worried about perfectionism. It's all unedited and rough draft. That's not the issue.

My ideas are very clear I know exactly about the world. I have the map fully in my mind. I know all of the locations and characters as if I've known them for years and walked through the streets and forests and valleys. I see it all perfectly. And that is just one story. I have so many....

It's like... I see it in my head. I sit down to write it out. I see it. There are no words there. It's like a black hole in my head. It's like let's say you watch your favorite t.v. show and then after you are asked, "what happened in this episode?" And you know exactly what happened but you can't explain it. That's as close as I can get to explaining.....