Dearest Shelley ~ I can understand how you FEEL, but honey you do NOT DESERVE all those things! NO ONE DOES!! What child deserves to be abused? Children are innocent. Children do NOT deserve to be sexually or physically abused!!! The thought of that is HORRIBLE. And the fact that you were NOT protected from that makes my skin crawl.

You are NOT inadequate! You are just as worthy and deserving as anyone else on earth, my friend. You are just as GOOD as anyone else on earth. Whoever put these thoughts into your head should be shot.

I wish I had you here, as you need some hugs!!! Who told you your feelings are infantile? They ARE NOT! You are NOT whining!! These are your feelings and they are legitimate!

You can't be done trying sweetie. We are here to HELP. We're not going to stop trying to help. Maybe we aren't doing a good job, but we'll keep trying. If you're not in therapy, you need to get there! You DO NEED A THERAPIST. Is there any way you can get into therapy Shelley? It's really important --- I hope you can. We'll still be here for you. You can bet on that.

But try to find a good therapist, sweetie. God bless. Hugs, Lee