I think I may of been hypomanic for the past few months. Idk anymore but I know I have done and said some pretty stupid stuff. Cheating on hubby emotionally with plans of leaving him and moving to another country to move in with a man??? Today I have zero feelings for this other man. I don't understand why I would even consider doing this. Has anyone ever been in this situation? Drinking has gone up more too as well as chain smoking and online gambling. It's dif this last time because usually I am so extroverted. I sat in my home this whole time and didn't answer any phone calls for as long as I could before ppl worried. It interfered with my gambling. At one point everything felt unreal. Like I wasn't sure of anything anymore. Like if that chair was really there and did it have the same significance to me as my children did?? I was emotionally numb. When my husband caught me cheating and was devastated I felt nothing for his hurt feelings. In my head he should of seen it coming?? How awful is that!! Emotions are slowly returning but I'd love to feel more. I know you aren't drs but did I go manic? Can anyone relate to this somewhat?