It's crossed my mind, but part of me is afraid to try a higher dosage because of how difficult this medication is for me to come by and I've also got some psychological issues in terms of feeling like adderall is holding me back or something. It's hard to explain, but I like to think I'll be able to quit medicating one day when life slows down. I guess I feel like it'll be even more of a permanent part of my life if I up the dosage...and I'll never break free.

I know all this sounds crazy, and I know I have issues related to this that needs to be ironed out in therapy.