T,
I am feeling so low and so confused and so insane and I can't tell you why, because I have no idea. I am alone with all of these serious emotions. I am terrified of what is to come. I am paralyzed and have been for a bit. I can't articulate what is going on inside of me, so you will never know. I cannot continue to try futilely to carry all of this on my own, I won't. I won't do this any longer, I have tried and tried and tried to push through and I am now giving up. I feel helplessly hopeless, and angrily enraged. I don't think anyone can help me, I am unfixable. I am ready to stop trying, I have suffered enough.