Hi George,

To answer your questions, I so many people treat me the same way. I have absolutely no one in my life that is supportive of me. Instead, I feel they criticize me, belittle me, humiliate me, and I don't think they care about me. No matter how hard I try, it's never good enough. No matter how hard I try to be the person they want me to be, it's never good enough. So, because there are so any people who treat me this way, and feel the way they feel about me, I just assume they must be right about something. I must really not be anything special. So why would anyone here or anywhere want anything to do with me? I just feel like if a majority of people have issues with me, then everyone else will too. That, in addition to just wanting to give up, are the two reasons why I didn't want to come back.

In regards to your second question, I, many, many years ago was caught up in a not so good relationship. The guy was bad news, and I went down with him. At the same time, I was neglecting my responsibilities as a family member, friend, co-worker, everything. I wasn't there for a lot of people like I should have been. I regret this now that I am aware of how I was behaving and what I was doing wrong. But, I never really recovered from the guilt I felt, and still feel. I do feel like a bad person. I should have been there for people, especially my family. I wasn't, so I believe that I deserve the punishment I have suffered because of my past actions. The guilt I feel will last a lifetime. I'm frustrated by it because I don't like feeling the way I do, but still I feel I deserve it.

I think I will stick around here though. Everyone so far has been very warm and welcoming to me.

Thanks for your response.